I most heartingly agree. If i give myself permission to be resentful my expectations is eye for n eye tooth for a tooth. I spent several years trying to get even for all the time and material stuff I had lost over a fifteen year period from being targeted. I was living with these cancerous maggots in my life but was doing my best to live life as an overcomer as I had come from a difficult life of addiction but had outlived all the bad karma from the old lifestyle and after becoming widowed my blinders came off and discovered there was betrayal in my life from family members.
So..... as I was getting well after death of my wife I went back to performing in bands as a drummer and on Fedbook tagging myself at events and concerts I was attending. Unbeknownst to me I was making it easy for gangstalkers to come harass me making me fearful of why I was having strangers give me a hard time and so overwhelmed with what was happening i began to drink alcohol and do other substances to take away my moral compass so I could engage the enemy with fearless attitude that eventually led to suicide by cops as I learned who was behind the targeting and why. So.... all that said. Ya can't be drunk n high to live life as a overcomer from hypocrites 21st century benedict arnolds. We do have to spend time with ourselves in positive self talk and not believing the reasons that real good pieces of shit decide to practice anti- American behavior who are the biggest un-Americans in our country. Their behavior says more about their shitty morals and says less about what control they have over me. Yes there DEWs are taking its toll but I refuse to allow these dirty bastards to take my liberty to freely choose what I do and how I think. So all that's left is the no touch torture program. So when its all said and done for the reasons? Torturing fellow countrymen is all that's left and as I type this out its apparently not what they want from me. So what . Get the fuck outta my life and mind their business and their feelings won't get hurt is healthy way for me to say I overcame the wrong way in responding what they expected me to do. However like your service and article suggests.
Its a daily battle and I cant rely on yesterday's decision to be one of us.
Thanks for all you have done KB for our community and our country. Because its never been all about me,and I believe you to know its not about you too.
Excellent reply. Yes they can manipulate our addictions even so that drunk period of yours may have been scripted. I've been through the worst of it and still find ways to be happy. They are no longer satisfied physically torturing me since it really isn't a good match for me but they keep it going anyway while they focus on my mind now. They limit my thoughts (all of this is done with severely compromised cognition), they give me headaches, they give me panic attacks and more. All severe. IDK why they think I am so durable.
Your story sounds a lot like mine actually. You're on the right track now- the one that keeps your soul untouched by it all. God bless Rich
I most heartingly agree. If i give myself permission to be resentful my expectations is eye for n eye tooth for a tooth. I spent several years trying to get even for all the time and material stuff I had lost over a fifteen year period from being targeted. I was living with these cancerous maggots in my life but was doing my best to live life as an overcomer as I had come from a difficult life of addiction but had outlived all the bad karma from the old lifestyle and after becoming widowed my blinders came off and discovered there was betrayal in my life from family members.
So..... as I was getting well after death of my wife I went back to performing in bands as a drummer and on Fedbook tagging myself at events and concerts I was attending. Unbeknownst to me I was making it easy for gangstalkers to come harass me making me fearful of why I was having strangers give me a hard time and so overwhelmed with what was happening i began to drink alcohol and do other substances to take away my moral compass so I could engage the enemy with fearless attitude that eventually led to suicide by cops as I learned who was behind the targeting and why. So.... all that said. Ya can't be drunk n high to live life as a overcomer from hypocrites 21st century benedict arnolds. We do have to spend time with ourselves in positive self talk and not believing the reasons that real good pieces of shit decide to practice anti- American behavior who are the biggest un-Americans in our country. Their behavior says more about their shitty morals and says less about what control they have over me. Yes there DEWs are taking its toll but I refuse to allow these dirty bastards to take my liberty to freely choose what I do and how I think. So all that's left is the no touch torture program. So when its all said and done for the reasons? Torturing fellow countrymen is all that's left and as I type this out its apparently not what they want from me. So what . Get the fuck outta my life and mind their business and their feelings won't get hurt is healthy way for me to say I overcame the wrong way in responding what they expected me to do. However like your service and article suggests.
Its a daily battle and I cant rely on yesterday's decision to be one of us.
Thanks for all you have done KB for our community and our country. Because its never been all about me,and I believe you to know its not about you too.
However its about
WEthePEOPLE
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Excellent reply. Yes they can manipulate our addictions even so that drunk period of yours may have been scripted. I've been through the worst of it and still find ways to be happy. They are no longer satisfied physically torturing me since it really isn't a good match for me but they keep it going anyway while they focus on my mind now. They limit my thoughts (all of this is done with severely compromised cognition), they give me headaches, they give me panic attacks and more. All severe. IDK why they think I am so durable.
Your story sounds a lot like mine actually. You're on the right track now- the one that keeps your soul untouched by it all. God bless Rich